Oh my goodness!!!! The time is coming soon............the baby has dropped! I feel alot of pressure in my lower extremeties. People are even commenting on how low I'm carrying lately.
It's a little sad that this pregnancy is almost over though. It is most probably my last one and I LOVE being pregnant!!! Oh well...I will take my healthy Zachary and pray that this child is just as healthy and live happily with that!
I've started charlie horses......WOW!!! I never had those while being pregnant with Zachary! Completely blows my mind!
So that's it for now. Not much going on except for a dropped belly!!!!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
34 Weeks
The countdown in on!!!! Last Saturday I had contractions that made me slow down to a snail's pace.......at my doc's apt this week the doc told me to slow down! But there's just a few more things to get done before I can relax for the Peanut.
Put our new room together, wash baby clothes and blankets and steralize bottles. See!! Not much more to do. It all works out.......
The baby moves around alot! But it's still moving up close to my ribs which makes me confident that it's still pretty high. We are not going anywhere yet.
Put our new room together, wash baby clothes and blankets and steralize bottles. See!! Not much more to do. It all works out.......
The baby moves around alot! But it's still moving up close to my ribs which makes me confident that it's still pretty high. We are not going anywhere yet.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
33 weeks tomorrow!
I can not believe how fast the time is flying!! With Zachary the time seemed to inch along and with the Peanut.......I don't even notice.
I find it bittersweet to be honest with you all. This is probably my last pregnancy ever and I'm a little sad.....I'll never have this gorgeous belly again....never feel a baby move and snuggle inside....... Everyday all I want to do is go out, anywhere at all, so that as many people can see me with my beautiful pregnant belly. I want smolder it in time!!!
And then, I can't wait to see this precious little face. Can't wait to hold Peanut and kiss it and hug it and introduce it to it's Big Brother Zachary!
Lately I'm so emotional that I get tears just looking at my son or from getting a super great hug from J-P. One moment I'm in love with everyone and the next I want to be alone with my little family....and have no one interrupt our little serene world on St. Louis Street.
Time is running out fast though!! I still have to wash up all the baby items like the bassinet, the swing.......but that'll take one afternoon. Hang it all up outside and then it's done!!!
I'm having a really hard time sleeping!! I feel my skin stretch across my belly and I can't help but NOT want stretch marks so I get up and rub my Palmer's Cocoa Butter all over it! Then my back blocks up when I try to turn over or even get up to go pee.........Peeing!!! I pee all the freakin' time!!! And my boobs hurt.....well, more like my nipples.......They've started to produce collestrum and I find that when Zachary snuggles up it feels like I'm letting milk down! I'm hoping that means that I won't have as much of a hard time breastfeeding Peanut as Zachary.
J-P is starting to be more attentive....I think he notices that my body hurts and he feels bad. There really is nothing he can do about it except do what he's doing. Giving Zachary his nightly baths, serving me when I'm sitting for the night, wash the floors for me when he has time!!!
I find it bittersweet to be honest with you all. This is probably my last pregnancy ever and I'm a little sad.....I'll never have this gorgeous belly again....never feel a baby move and snuggle inside....... Everyday all I want to do is go out, anywhere at all, so that as many people can see me with my beautiful pregnant belly. I want smolder it in time!!!
And then, I can't wait to see this precious little face. Can't wait to hold Peanut and kiss it and hug it and introduce it to it's Big Brother Zachary!
Lately I'm so emotional that I get tears just looking at my son or from getting a super great hug from J-P. One moment I'm in love with everyone and the next I want to be alone with my little family....and have no one interrupt our little serene world on St. Louis Street.
Time is running out fast though!! I still have to wash up all the baby items like the bassinet, the swing.......but that'll take one afternoon. Hang it all up outside and then it's done!!!
I'm having a really hard time sleeping!! I feel my skin stretch across my belly and I can't help but NOT want stretch marks so I get up and rub my Palmer's Cocoa Butter all over it! Then my back blocks up when I try to turn over or even get up to go pee.........Peeing!!! I pee all the freakin' time!!! And my boobs hurt.....well, more like my nipples.......They've started to produce collestrum and I find that when Zachary snuggles up it feels like I'm letting milk down! I'm hoping that means that I won't have as much of a hard time breastfeeding Peanut as Zachary.
J-P is starting to be more attentive....I think he notices that my body hurts and he feels bad. There really is nothing he can do about it except do what he's doing. Giving Zachary his nightly baths, serving me when I'm sitting for the night, wash the floors for me when he has time!!!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
25 Weeks Today!!!!!
Oh my godness!!! I just glanced over at my widget and realized that I'm no longer in the 100 or do days left.......I'm in the 70 or so days left!!!!! A little feeling of panic just came over me!
Excitement too.........another little monkey running around and yelling at me, and then running over for a hug!!!! It sounds so cliché, but this is what I was put on earth to do. To love, nuture, bring up to the best of my capabilities......hopefully they won't be as corrupt as I was growing up. We always want better for our children, and I understand to the fullest what that means now. I wasn't a beaten child or anything like that, but sometimes things got so hectic with issues that I really should not have seen or heard, that I do remember being pushed aside. I don't ever want my babies to feel that way!!!!
Peanut is starting to get snug in there. Yesterday I layed down for a nap while Kiki slept and the baby kept kicking me in the same exact location. At first I tried rubbing it so that it could feel loved and at peace, but it wouldn't stop. Then I thought, what if the cords stuck around it's head? Silly I know, but some of you have no idea the things that run thru your head.
At my last doc apt, they finally told me that the baby was breeched. But that was from my last ultrasound in early May. It could have changed positions a million times by now. I'm tellin' ya folks!! I'm not too comfortable with the way that I'm being followed at that clinic. They forget to tell me things and then weeks later......oh yeah!! We forgot to tell you but.........
Well, other than that, nothing much is going on. Except that time is running out and the wall btwn 2 rooms needs to be brought down and then that big room painted for J-P and I, then Zachary's new room needs to be painted and tile laid down..lots to do. But I think once I'm done at the end of June, things will get into high gear.........well they have too!!!! At this point we have no place for Peanut and there is no way this bébé is coming into this world homeless!!!!!
Excitement too.........another little monkey running around and yelling at me, and then running over for a hug!!!! It sounds so cliché, but this is what I was put on earth to do. To love, nuture, bring up to the best of my capabilities......hopefully they won't be as corrupt as I was growing up. We always want better for our children, and I understand to the fullest what that means now. I wasn't a beaten child or anything like that, but sometimes things got so hectic with issues that I really should not have seen or heard, that I do remember being pushed aside. I don't ever want my babies to feel that way!!!!
Peanut is starting to get snug in there. Yesterday I layed down for a nap while Kiki slept and the baby kept kicking me in the same exact location. At first I tried rubbing it so that it could feel loved and at peace, but it wouldn't stop. Then I thought, what if the cords stuck around it's head? Silly I know, but some of you have no idea the things that run thru your head.
At my last doc apt, they finally told me that the baby was breeched. But that was from my last ultrasound in early May. It could have changed positions a million times by now. I'm tellin' ya folks!! I'm not too comfortable with the way that I'm being followed at that clinic. They forget to tell me things and then weeks later......oh yeah!! We forgot to tell you but.........
Well, other than that, nothing much is going on. Except that time is running out and the wall btwn 2 rooms needs to be brought down and then that big room painted for J-P and I, then Zachary's new room needs to be painted and tile laid down..lots to do. But I think once I'm done at the end of June, things will get into high gear.........well they have too!!!! At this point we have no place for Peanut and there is no way this bébé is coming into this world homeless!!!!!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
23 Weeks and 6 days
Alrighty!! I was told to update my blog!
I'm getting huge!! I can't believe it, I'm definately a pregnant woman who is now officially waddling........... I really don't remember having this many aches and pains and as much of a bump with Kiki!
I had my monthly doc apt today. The nurses and docs cautioned me on my weight gain.....10 in a half pounds in one month!!!! I'm 10 pounds away from what I was when I gave birth to Kiki. Oh well! I really don't understand it though because I have jeans that still slip on......can't tie them up, BUT they are on!!!!
This child moves so much more than what my boy did.......vivacious little thing, it lets me know when it's not comfy!!! And I LOVE IT!!!!! It's probably my last pregnancy and I'm trying my best to keep every detail etched close to my heart. Like right now, it's moving and kicking!!
The other night I had a dream that I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl with a perfect little face like Kiki's and a head full of black hair. J-P and I were discussing a name for her and I just happened to look back down at her gorgeous little face and it was no longer a baby...no no....it was a puppy!!!!! White and beige little thing!! That dream upset me because we were so close to getting a name and then got sidetracked.............About a month ago, I had another dream where a girl's name was being echoed in my ears. I woke up thru it and tried to grasp at that name and lost it! Strange eh?!?!?!?!?
Guess what???? The docs agreed to put me off of work for June 20th!!!! I can't stand being at work any longer....I just want to bash someone's head against the freakin' desk.....I want to grab the damn computer and biff it thru a window!!!! No more patience for that.......I guess I have other things on my mind right now that feel more important!
I'm getting huge!! I can't believe it, I'm definately a pregnant woman who is now officially waddling........... I really don't remember having this many aches and pains and as much of a bump with Kiki!
I had my monthly doc apt today. The nurses and docs cautioned me on my weight gain.....10 in a half pounds in one month!!!! I'm 10 pounds away from what I was when I gave birth to Kiki. Oh well! I really don't understand it though because I have jeans that still slip on......can't tie them up, BUT they are on!!!!
This child moves so much more than what my boy did.......vivacious little thing, it lets me know when it's not comfy!!! And I LOVE IT!!!!! It's probably my last pregnancy and I'm trying my best to keep every detail etched close to my heart. Like right now, it's moving and kicking!!
The other night I had a dream that I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl with a perfect little face like Kiki's and a head full of black hair. J-P and I were discussing a name for her and I just happened to look back down at her gorgeous little face and it was no longer a baby...no no....it was a puppy!!!!! White and beige little thing!! That dream upset me because we were so close to getting a name and then got sidetracked.............About a month ago, I had another dream where a girl's name was being echoed in my ears. I woke up thru it and tried to grasp at that name and lost it! Strange eh?!?!?!?!?
Guess what???? The docs agreed to put me off of work for June 20th!!!! I can't stand being at work any longer....I just want to bash someone's head against the freakin' desk.....I want to grab the damn computer and biff it thru a window!!!! No more patience for that.......I guess I have other things on my mind right now that feel more important!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
20 Weeks and 2 days!
I feel good.....but I do have Braxton Hicks......can't help but think of my good friend haylie when I write Braxton Hicks (hope everything will hold off for a few more weeks for you sweetie!!)
I remember having BH with Kiki around 7 months. I told the docs at my apt this week and it's normal, I knew that. They are not regular.....they just happen at the oddest moment and for me the cramp goes all the way down to my croch!! Oh well.
My left ciatic nerve is acting up big time!!! Got a slip from the docs to get a massage, yahoo!!! LOVE those professional massages........it's been so long since I've had one, I deserve it!!
I'm tired too.......so tired.....but that goes with the territory. I force myself to go out for walks with Kiki, and once I start going I feel great!! Mind you, I sleep really well at night except for when I have to get up 2 to 3 times to pee!!
My belly has popped out by the way! I'm really now in full blown mat pants and skirts! My regular pants cut me off and peanut squirms too much. It's almost like I know that the peanut is getting squished......
All in all, this pregnancy is going well! No complaints, except of course for the normal prego stuff......
I remember having BH with Kiki around 7 months. I told the docs at my apt this week and it's normal, I knew that. They are not regular.....they just happen at the oddest moment and for me the cramp goes all the way down to my croch!! Oh well.
My left ciatic nerve is acting up big time!!! Got a slip from the docs to get a massage, yahoo!!! LOVE those professional massages........it's been so long since I've had one, I deserve it!!
I'm tired too.......so tired.....but that goes with the territory. I force myself to go out for walks with Kiki, and once I start going I feel great!! Mind you, I sleep really well at night except for when I have to get up 2 to 3 times to pee!!
My belly has popped out by the way! I'm really now in full blown mat pants and skirts! My regular pants cut me off and peanut squirms too much. It's almost like I know that the peanut is getting squished......
All in all, this pregnancy is going well! No complaints, except of course for the normal prego stuff......
Thursday, April 10, 2008
18 Weeks!!
This has been a week of downs and ups with emotion, worry and thinking!!! Last Thrusday I received a phone call to go in and see Dr. Voges for an update on my blood work. J-P and I went in and I was hit in the gut with, "There is a high possibility that your child has down's syndrome!"
Where does a parent go from there? You wait for the specialist to call you to let you know when your 3-D apt is in Moncton and you worry......you confide in those closest to you because your mind will completely drive you nuts with thinking and worrying. And if you are lucky, you have a wonderful husband who holds you while silent tears of hope and despair fall down your face......if you're even luckier you have a wonderful perfect child already at home that you follow around in awe to keep your mind busy.
We went to Moncton this past Tuesday and had a 1 hour session with Dr. Murphy who is wonderful!! She doesn't pussyfoot around anything and tells you that if she sees anything positive or negative, she will tell you right away.......she does not make you wait 2 to 4 weeks to see your regular doctor for results.....god love her!!!
The baby is fine! Perfect to say the least........it seems that my dates were off and that we didn't conceive when we thought we did. It seems so stupid now that that's all it was!! But that is what it was.......My due date is now September 11th instead of August 25th.
I'm relieved and so is Daddy!! I now have my appetite back, my sense of humour, my sex drive!! Everything is beautiful, including this child!!!
Where does a parent go from there? You wait for the specialist to call you to let you know when your 3-D apt is in Moncton and you worry......you confide in those closest to you because your mind will completely drive you nuts with thinking and worrying. And if you are lucky, you have a wonderful husband who holds you while silent tears of hope and despair fall down your face......if you're even luckier you have a wonderful perfect child already at home that you follow around in awe to keep your mind busy.
We went to Moncton this past Tuesday and had a 1 hour session with Dr. Murphy who is wonderful!! She doesn't pussyfoot around anything and tells you that if she sees anything positive or negative, she will tell you right away.......she does not make you wait 2 to 4 weeks to see your regular doctor for results.....god love her!!!
The baby is fine! Perfect to say the least........it seems that my dates were off and that we didn't conceive when we thought we did. It seems so stupid now that that's all it was!! But that is what it was.......My due date is now September 11th instead of August 25th.
I'm relieved and so is Daddy!! I now have my appetite back, my sense of humour, my sex drive!! Everything is beautiful, including this child!!!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
19 Weeks and 1 day
I went for an Ultrasound today and the technician is trying to tell me that I miscalculated my period.......impossible!!! Anyway, the monitor was saying that I'm 17 weeks and not 19 weeks. Which pushes my due date to September 5th. The baby only weighs 6 oz and I have to go back in two weeks for another ultrasound! The tech was really nice, but I got 0 pics.
It was nice to see the baby though! It kept waving it's little hands at us as if it was saying hi, and stretching out it's little legs.........looked exactly like Kiki did.........
Well, hopefully in 2 weeks this child will gain some more weight, I'm getting worried............
It was nice to see the baby though! It kept waving it's little hands at us as if it was saying hi, and stretching out it's little legs.........looked exactly like Kiki did.........
Well, hopefully in 2 weeks this child will gain some more weight, I'm getting worried............
Monday, March 24, 2008
18 Weeks today!!
Let's see......not much to report except that I feel the baby moving lots!! Especially after I eat. I went for a pre-natal apt last Thursday and the heart beat was 150, close to what Kiki's was. But that doesn't mean anything. The nurse that was tending to me told me that when she was pregnant with her 3rd, she already had two boys and the heart beat for that child was close to 170 and she thought, woohoo a girl.......not, it turned out to be a boy!!!
I gained two pounds since last month...I guess the baby hasn't gone thru a major growth spurt since last month. I've gained a total of 7 pounds since the beginning which I'm not complaining about, especially since I eat pretty much whatever I want!!!! But my weight gain is consistent with my pregnancy for Kiki, which I ended up gaining nearly 40lbs for in the end!
I go back for a pre-natal apt this Wednesday, but that's just because the nurses forgot to give me my sheet for blood work......and it has to be done before 20 weeks gestation.
J-P has not felt the baby move yet.....I don't feel it moving with my hand yet either. With Kiki, I felt him with my hand at 20 weeks......
I gained two pounds since last month...I guess the baby hasn't gone thru a major growth spurt since last month. I've gained a total of 7 pounds since the beginning which I'm not complaining about, especially since I eat pretty much whatever I want!!!! But my weight gain is consistent with my pregnancy for Kiki, which I ended up gaining nearly 40lbs for in the end!
I go back for a pre-natal apt this Wednesday, but that's just because the nurses forgot to give me my sheet for blood work......and it has to be done before 20 weeks gestation.
J-P has not felt the baby move yet.....I don't feel it moving with my hand yet either. With Kiki, I felt him with my hand at 20 weeks......
Monday, March 3, 2008
15 Weeks!!!!
My goodness! 15 weeks already........unbelievable.
Well, all I have to say is that if I get one more sinus problem this winter, I'm gonna scream!!!!
Well, all I have to say is that if I get one more sinus problem this winter, I'm gonna scream!!!!
Thursday, February 28, 2008
14 Weeks and 3 days
Not much going on except feeling lots of movement! Especially after I eat. So far I find that this pregnancy is going by fast. (Can't help saying this since Haylie feels like she's at a stand still!! Poor thing.) I guess I don't have much time to think about this one as much as I did with the 1st one. I guess there's so much going on here at home with renovations and cleaning up everytime something is done, and then there's work, and playing with Kiki (and now he's sick so he's extra cuddly) and then there's J-P that needs my attention too, and then there's that little 5 minutes that I try to squeeze in for myself from time to time!!! With Kiki it seemed to take FOREVER!!! And then I remember thinking when it was time to go the hopsital, Already!!
With Kiki I obsessed over everything!!! Every movement, every squirm, hiccup........It was a good pregnancy though. This one is now excellent..........no more queasiness.........definately excellent!! Also, as all you fellow mommies know.........in your 2nd tri-mester you become a nympho maniac!!!!!! J-P is some happy about that.......I swear even women are starting to look good!!
With Kiki I obsessed over everything!!! Every movement, every squirm, hiccup........It was a good pregnancy though. This one is now excellent..........no more queasiness.........definately excellent!! Also, as all you fellow mommies know.........in your 2nd tri-mester you become a nympho maniac!!!!!! J-P is some happy about that.......I swear even women are starting to look good!!
Thursday, February 21, 2008
13 Weeks and 3 days
Had a doctor's appointment today.....we were not able to hear the heart beat, but we heard the baby move alot!!! Zachary and J-P came along with me.....Zachary seemed to think that the whole thing was hilarious. He laughed and giggled thru the whole thing!!!!
I gained 3 in a half pounds since last month. Not too shabby!!!
I gained 3 in a half pounds since last month. Not too shabby!!!
Thursday, February 7, 2008
11 Weeks and 3 Days
Let's see.......I'm not sick to my stomach as much. Thank goodness!! I'm strill pretty tired though. And I'm up atleast twice during the night to pee..........
Kiki is 1 year old today! I can't believe how fast this past year went. That just makes me realize how fast this pregancy will go and soon enough I'll have another little bundle in my arms to cuddle and croon.
I'm starting to get excited. I'll be honest, for a bit there I might have been a little resentful. But, it was for me to pay more attention to my pills. A child is always a blessing though, this one happened for a reason. I guess in August I'll find out why. Well to be honest again, I guess I know the reason why this child has come into my life.....................
Kiki is 1 year old today! I can't believe how fast this past year went. That just makes me realize how fast this pregancy will go and soon enough I'll have another little bundle in my arms to cuddle and croon.
I'm starting to get excited. I'll be honest, for a bit there I might have been a little resentful. But, it was for me to pay more attention to my pills. A child is always a blessing though, this one happened for a reason. I guess in August I'll find out why. Well to be honest again, I guess I know the reason why this child has come into my life.....................
Thursday, January 31, 2008
10 Weeks and 3 days
Ok!!! I definately felt 2 jabs today at work. I stopped everything I was doing and just sat there stunned..........could it really be?? It has to be!!! It was thrilling. Haven't felt anything since. To be expected.
I'm still sick to my stomach but not as often, it comes at the weirdest times. Strange how I loved smoking and now the smell makes me want to vomit! And god love J-P, he's on the road to quitting himself.
Well, nothing else to report. Just growing out of my pants and getting up more often at night to pee!!
I'm still sick to my stomach but not as often, it comes at the weirdest times. Strange how I loved smoking and now the smell makes me want to vomit! And god love J-P, he's on the road to quitting himself.
Well, nothing else to report. Just growing out of my pants and getting up more often at night to pee!!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
9 Weeks and 1 Day
I swear that I can feel this peanut from time to time.....last Saturday I was watching a movie over at a friends house and I was sitting basically in the middle of the speakers and I'm sure I felt squirming!!
I'm not as nauseaus.......but I still get bouts where I have to sit down and take deep breaths. I'm getting lots of cramping though, I know it's normal, but I can't help being a little worried. Everything that I'm worried about will be put to rest this morning because I have my first apt with the baby doctor today.
I hope that J-P and I can hear the heart beat!!!
I'm not as nauseaus.......but I still get bouts where I have to sit down and take deep breaths. I'm getting lots of cramping though, I know it's normal, but I can't help being a little worried. Everything that I'm worried about will be put to rest this morning because I have my first apt with the baby doctor today.
I hope that J-P and I can hear the heart beat!!!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
8 weeks and 4 days
My belly popped out!!!! At this point in my pregnancy with Kiki I had a flat belly and didn't look prego. My belly now looks like it was at 4 months with Kiki!!!! The problem with this is that my maternity clothes don't fit yet and I only have one pair of dress pants and two skirts for work.
Saturday I'm going out to the Salvation Army to see if they have anything decent that can hold me over until I fit in my maternity clothes........
I'm not sleeping well at all. And I'm still heart sick, but not as much as last week (thank goodness).
I'm not feeling very well either.....I have a sinus problem and my lungs feel like they are going to cave in. Oh well! It will pass.
I have my first appointment with the doctor this coming Wednesday. I hope we are able to listen to the heart! I would love to have that confirmation that Peanut is alive and well!!!
Saturday I'm going out to the Salvation Army to see if they have anything decent that can hold me over until I fit in my maternity clothes........
I'm not sleeping well at all. And I'm still heart sick, but not as much as last week (thank goodness).
I'm not feeling very well either.....I have a sinus problem and my lungs feel like they are going to cave in. Oh well! It will pass.
I have my first appointment with the doctor this coming Wednesday. I hope we are able to listen to the heart! I would love to have that confirmation that Peanut is alive and well!!!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Cravings
My cravings have started with a vengence!!!!!! Chinese buffet is what I want one minute, then I would run someone over for a good cesar salad......or a garlic finger with real bacon bits!! Or maybe a seafood fondue.......or a good steak on the bbq!! It's never ending.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tired and Nauseaus....
Oh my!! I can't get over how tired I am!!! I slept 9 hours last night and I could sleep another 8......can't though I've got a boo named Kiki who needs his Mama.
The last few days have been hard on my tummy. I'm always queezy, is it ever going to stop!!! I never had that with Kiki, and I can't always eat!! My god, by the time this child comes I'll be a blimp!!
On another note.......I have to start work a week early! No choice. The reason is of the pay periods at work. If I go back the 21st, that would make me wait 3 in a half weeks for $$. Can't afford that! As you all know, I'm pretty much having an emotional break down over it! I've got to get over myself and keep sending myself mental notes that it will all be ok! And it will.
His god-mother is the baby-sitter and she loves him to death. If I ask her to bring him to the library, she will. If there's a play or a little show that I'd like him to see, she'll bring him. And I know that she'll always take him outside when it's nice out.......I guess I have this mental problem where I'm the Mama and don't step on my turf. But, I can't go to work and be here at the same time!! It will be fine. I just need to get my first week of work in and I'll see that it will be good!! Right??
The last few days have been hard on my tummy. I'm always queezy, is it ever going to stop!!! I never had that with Kiki, and I can't always eat!! My god, by the time this child comes I'll be a blimp!!
On another note.......I have to start work a week early! No choice. The reason is of the pay periods at work. If I go back the 21st, that would make me wait 3 in a half weeks for $$. Can't afford that! As you all know, I'm pretty much having an emotional break down over it! I've got to get over myself and keep sending myself mental notes that it will all be ok! And it will.
His god-mother is the baby-sitter and she loves him to death. If I ask her to bring him to the library, she will. If there's a play or a little show that I'd like him to see, she'll bring him. And I know that she'll always take him outside when it's nice out.......I guess I have this mental problem where I'm the Mama and don't step on my turf. But, I can't go to work and be here at the same time!! It will be fine. I just need to get my first week of work in and I'll see that it will be good!! Right??
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Hungry All The Time!!
I'm starving!!! I don't remember being this hungry with Kiki.........I could sit down and eat multiple buffets!!! Hmmmmmmmm, chinese buffet!!!
Or italian buffet, or maybe I'll go up to my mother in law's and raid her freezer for some home made pizza rolls!!!!
And thirsty.....I think I drank a whole bottle of water from my water cooler in like 3 days!! J-P thinks I'm a camel!!!
Or italian buffet, or maybe I'll go up to my mother in law's and raid her freezer for some home made pizza rolls!!!!
And thirsty.....I think I drank a whole bottle of water from my water cooler in like 3 days!! J-P thinks I'm a camel!!!
Monday, January 7, 2008
Am I Imagining Things?
I could swear that I feel this little peanut fluttering around at times...........but it's way too soon, isn't it???? The first time I felt Kiki move was at about 16 weeks, and today I'm 7 weeks........must be my imagination!!
Geeze, I have a hard time to sleep lately. It seems that at exactly 3:30am I'm wide awake and I'm just laying there listening to J-P and Kiki's breathing. I wiggle the bed to see if J-P will wake up, but he just snores louder!! The frigger!!!!
I'm also anxious about going back to work. The thought of someone else spending 8 hours a day with my baby Kiki just puts a huge knot in my stomach.....I'm having a hard time with this folks!!!
His god-mother is coming here to my house to babysit him, but still, it bothers me!!! I want to be here to see his very first step, I want to be the main one to teach him potty training and to ween him off of his bottle!!! It's not fair!!!! Why is life so expensive.......women should get a supplement from the government to stay home with their children until they go to school..............
I'm also very territorial about my son.....I'm so close to just pee a circle around him it's not funny.
Geeze, I have a hard time to sleep lately. It seems that at exactly 3:30am I'm wide awake and I'm just laying there listening to J-P and Kiki's breathing. I wiggle the bed to see if J-P will wake up, but he just snores louder!! The frigger!!!!
I'm also anxious about going back to work. The thought of someone else spending 8 hours a day with my baby Kiki just puts a huge knot in my stomach.....I'm having a hard time with this folks!!!
His god-mother is coming here to my house to babysit him, but still, it bothers me!!! I want to be here to see his very first step, I want to be the main one to teach him potty training and to ween him off of his bottle!!! It's not fair!!!! Why is life so expensive.......women should get a supplement from the government to stay home with their children until they go to school..............
I'm also very territorial about my son.....I'm so close to just pee a circle around him it's not funny.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Emotional Are We??
Either I'm having emotional break downs or I'm definately pregnant. The littlest things will bring tears to my eyes and make my heart and soul tremble.
Little things like having Kiki put his little head on my shoulder and pat my back......watching J-P do laundry for me because he knows that I'm tired.....seeing my Mom giddy over the fact that Kiki now chews his Arrow Root cookie like a big boy......unbelievable!!!!!
I hope this is over before I go back to work on the 21st!!!! I can't be walkng around with silent tears rolling down my face. But I love it!! I love being pregnant and if children weren't so expensive (college, toys, college, college), I'd have a dozen or so!!
Little things like having Kiki put his little head on my shoulder and pat my back......watching J-P do laundry for me because he knows that I'm tired.....seeing my Mom giddy over the fact that Kiki now chews his Arrow Root cookie like a big boy......unbelievable!!!!!
I hope this is over before I go back to work on the 21st!!!! I can't be walkng around with silent tears rolling down my face. But I love it!! I love being pregnant and if children weren't so expensive (college, toys, college, college), I'd have a dozen or so!!
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Tired, tired, tired.....
Kiki decided to wake up at about 5:30 this morning, which he hasn't done in ages.........but I was able to get him back to sleep until about 6:45. Daddy was nice and got up with him today, couldn't ask for a better man.
Strange how the nauseousness comes over me. But I've figured out it's when I'm hungry. So, as soon as I feel like I might up-chuck, I eat a little something.
I know it's so soon in the pregnancy, but I think this one might be a girl. The differences btwn the 2 pregnancies so far are that I now get heart sick, and my skin is glowing!!!! With Kiki, I broke out with acne like I was a hormonal 15 year old all over again!!! I might be wrong though. I wouldn't mind a boy again..........that would just leave room for a 3rd one!!!!!!
Strange how the nauseousness comes over me. But I've figured out it's when I'm hungry. So, as soon as I feel like I might up-chuck, I eat a little something.
I know it's so soon in the pregnancy, but I think this one might be a girl. The differences btwn the 2 pregnancies so far are that I now get heart sick, and my skin is glowing!!!! With Kiki, I broke out with acne like I was a hormonal 15 year old all over again!!! I might be wrong though. I wouldn't mind a boy again..........that would just leave room for a 3rd one!!!!!!
Friday, January 4, 2008
6 Weeks
Well, well, well........I found out on January 1st at about noon that I'm going to be a Mommy for the 2nd time!!!! At first I was a little shocked and panicky.....we started talking about when we would have our second, but it wasn't supposed to be so soon. J-P was happier than a piggy in poop when he seen the stick!! God love him. But I'm excited, ecstatic, scared, emotional................ It will be one heck of a blast for the next few years with "2" toddlers!!!
So far I feel great except for unexpected feelings of, "Oh my.........I'm going to throw up!!" Which I didn't have with Kiki! And of course the inevitable tiredness at the strangest times.
Not craving anything yet except for a very long and soulful drag of a ciggy......But I'll live. Quitting smoking is the best thing I could do for this child. I did it for Kiki, so I'm determined to do it for this one also.
Well, that's it for now............
So far I feel great except for unexpected feelings of, "Oh my.........I'm going to throw up!!" Which I didn't have with Kiki! And of course the inevitable tiredness at the strangest times.
Not craving anything yet except for a very long and soulful drag of a ciggy......But I'll live. Quitting smoking is the best thing I could do for this child. I did it for Kiki, so I'm determined to do it for this one also.
Well, that's it for now............
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