Oh my godness!!! I just glanced over at my widget and realized that I'm no longer in the 100 or do days left.......I'm in the 70 or so days left!!!!! A little feeling of panic just came over me!
Excitement too.........another little monkey running around and yelling at me, and then running over for a hug!!!! It sounds so cliché, but this is what I was put on earth to do. To love, nuture, bring up to the best of my capabilities......hopefully they won't be as corrupt as I was growing up. We always want better for our children, and I understand to the fullest what that means now. I wasn't a beaten child or anything like that, but sometimes things got so hectic with issues that I really should not have seen or heard, that I do remember being pushed aside. I don't ever want my babies to feel that way!!!!
Peanut is starting to get snug in there. Yesterday I layed down for a nap while Kiki slept and the baby kept kicking me in the same exact location. At first I tried rubbing it so that it could feel loved and at peace, but it wouldn't stop. Then I thought, what if the cords stuck around it's head? Silly I know, but some of you have no idea the things that run thru your head.
At my last doc apt, they finally told me that the baby was breeched. But that was from my last ultrasound in early May. It could have changed positions a million times by now. I'm tellin' ya folks!! I'm not too comfortable with the way that I'm being followed at that clinic. They forget to tell me things and then weeks later......oh yeah!! We forgot to tell you but.........
Well, other than that, nothing much is going on. Except that time is running out and the wall btwn 2 rooms needs to be brought down and then that big room painted for J-P and I, then Zachary's new room needs to be painted and tile laid down..lots to do. But I think once I'm done at the end of June, things will get into high gear.........well they have too!!!! At this point we have no place for Peanut and there is no way this bébé is coming into this world homeless!!!!!
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I totally know where you're coming from with regards to the morbid thoughts running through your head! I've also had the fear of the cord being wrapped around something it shouldn't. Or something else is wrong and no one wants to tell you. Of course they would and i've seen Junior enough to know all is fine, but you always have that niggling worry until baby is out and in your arms!
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