10 Weeks and 3 days

Ok!!! I definately felt 2 jabs today at work. I stopped everything I was doing and just sat there stunned..........could it really be?? It has to be!!! It was thrilling. Haven't felt anything since. To be expected.

I'm still sick to my stomach but not as often, it comes at the weirdest times. Strange how I loved smoking and now the smell makes me want to vomit! And god love J-P, he's on the road to quitting himself.

Well, nothing else to report. Just growing out of my pants and getting up more often at night to pee!!

9 Weeks and 1 Day

I swear that I can feel this peanut from time to time.....last Saturday I was watching a movie over at a friends house and I was sitting basically in the middle of the speakers and I'm sure I felt squirming!!
I'm not as nauseaus.......but I still get bouts where I have to sit down and take deep breaths. I'm getting lots of cramping though, I know it's normal, but I can't help being a little worried. Everything that I'm worried about will be put to rest this morning because I have my first apt with the baby doctor today.
I hope that J-P and I can hear the heart beat!!!

8 weeks and 4 days

My belly popped out!!!! At this point in my pregnancy with Kiki I had a flat belly and didn't look prego. My belly now looks like it was at 4 months with Kiki!!!! The problem with this is that my maternity clothes don't fit yet and I only have one pair of dress pants and two skirts for work.
Saturday I'm going out to the Salvation Army to see if they have anything decent that can hold me over until I fit in my maternity clothes........
I'm not sleeping well at all. And I'm still heart sick, but not as much as last week (thank goodness).
I'm not feeling very well either.....I have a sinus problem and my lungs feel like they are going to cave in. Oh well! It will pass.
I have my first appointment with the doctor this coming Wednesday. I hope we are able to listen to the heart! I would love to have that confirmation that Peanut is alive and well!!!

Cravings

My cravings have started with a vengence!!!!!! Chinese buffet is what I want one minute, then I would run someone over for a good cesar salad......or a garlic finger with real bacon bits!! Or maybe a seafood fondue.......or a good steak on the bbq!! It's never ending.

Tired and Nauseaus....

Oh my!! I can't get over how tired I am!!! I slept 9 hours last night and I could sleep another 8......can't though I've got a boo named Kiki who needs his Mama.
The last few days have been hard on my tummy. I'm always queezy, is it ever going to stop!!! I never had that with Kiki, and I can't always eat!! My god, by the time this child comes I'll be a blimp!!
On another note.......I have to start work a week early! No choice. The reason is of the pay periods at work. If I go back the 21st, that would make me wait 3 in a half weeks for $$. Can't afford that! As you all know, I'm pretty much having an emotional break down over it! I've got to get over myself and keep sending myself mental notes that it will all be ok! And it will.
His god-mother is the baby-sitter and she loves him to death. If I ask her to bring him to the library, she will. If there's a play or a little show that I'd like him to see, she'll bring him. And I know that she'll always take him outside when it's nice out.......I guess I have this mental problem where I'm the Mama and don't step on my turf. But, I can't go to work and be here at the same time!! It will be fine. I just need to get my first week of work in and I'll see that it will be good!! Right??

Hungry All The Time!!

I'm starving!!! I don't remember being this hungry with Kiki.........I could sit down and eat multiple buffets!!! Hmmmmmmmm, chinese buffet!!!
Or italian buffet, or maybe I'll go up to my mother in law's and raid her freezer for some home made pizza rolls!!!!
And thirsty.....I think I drank a whole bottle of water from my water cooler in like 3 days!! J-P thinks I'm a camel!!!

Am I Imagining Things?

I could swear that I feel this little peanut fluttering around at times...........but it's way too soon, isn't it???? The first time I felt Kiki move was at about 16 weeks, and today I'm 7 weeks........must be my imagination!!
Geeze, I have a hard time to sleep lately. It seems that at exactly 3:30am I'm wide awake and I'm just laying there listening to J-P and Kiki's breathing. I wiggle the bed to see if J-P will wake up, but he just snores louder!! The frigger!!!!
I'm also anxious about going back to work. The thought of someone else spending 8 hours a day with my baby Kiki just puts a huge knot in my stomach.....I'm having a hard time with this folks!!!
His god-mother is coming here to my house to babysit him, but still, it bothers me!!! I want to be here to see his very first step, I want to be the main one to teach him potty training and to ween him off of his bottle!!! It's not fair!!!! Why is life so expensive.......women should get a supplement from the government to stay home with their children until they go to school..............
I'm also very territorial about my son.....I'm so close to just pee a circle around him it's not funny.

Emotional Are We??

Either I'm having emotional break downs or I'm definately pregnant. The littlest things will bring tears to my eyes and make my heart and soul tremble.
Little things like having Kiki put his little head on my shoulder and pat my back......watching J-P do laundry for me because he knows that I'm tired.....seeing my Mom giddy over the fact that Kiki now chews his Arrow Root cookie like a big boy......unbelievable!!!!!
I hope this is over before I go back to work on the 21st!!!! I can't be walkng around with silent tears rolling down my face. But I love it!! I love being pregnant and if children weren't so expensive (college, toys, college, college), I'd have a dozen or so!!

Tired, tired, tired.....

Kiki decided to wake up at about 5:30 this morning, which he hasn't done in ages.........but I was able to get him back to sleep until about 6:45. Daddy was nice and got up with him today, couldn't ask for a better man.

Strange how the nauseousness comes over me. But I've figured out it's when I'm hungry. So, as soon as I feel like I might up-chuck, I eat a little something.

I know it's so soon in the pregnancy, but I think this one might be a girl. The differences btwn the 2 pregnancies so far are that I now get heart sick, and my skin is glowing!!!! With Kiki, I broke out with acne like I was a hormonal 15 year old all over again!!! I might be wrong though. I wouldn't mind a boy again..........that would just leave room for a 3rd one!!!!!!

6 Weeks

Well, well, well........I found out on January 1st at about noon that I'm going to be a Mommy for the 2nd time!!!! At first I was a little shocked and panicky.....we started talking about when we would have our second, but it wasn't supposed to be so soon. J-P was happier than a piggy in poop when he seen the stick!! God love him. But I'm excited, ecstatic, scared, emotional................ It will be one heck of a blast for the next few years with "2" toddlers!!!

So far I feel great except for unexpected feelings of, "Oh my.........I'm going to throw up!!" Which I didn't have with Kiki! And of course the inevitable tiredness at the strangest times.

Not craving anything yet except for a very long and soulful drag of a ciggy......But I'll live. Quitting smoking is the best thing I could do for this child. I did it for Kiki, so I'm determined to do it for this one also.

Well, that's it for now............